even i still believe that our parents always said that till now..

but don’t know why..suddenly in this situation accidently  i did it..eventhough i know it can’t be like dat..seriously i know it!!!!

NOT YET really believe that person..even can’t say if i believe that person because till now i don’t know exactly who is that person..

YES..maybe u will think that i’m crazy to believe with stranger..sometimes i also feel that i am crazy enough..but really i even don’t know why i can be like that..but believe or not sometimes i feel that i’m happy with all this things..REALLY!! can’t explain how come that i can feel like this..but i just feel different..and maybe because i feel totally different so i still stick with this situation..RITE?

NOW i just feel totally entirely confuse..with the situation..with what i feel now..with this person..and the sadness is i also confuse with myself..silly rite lol ;p

I HATE IF I BECOME LIKE THIS ONE..feel like i can’t controll myself,can’t handle all the situation..and look so SILLY ..

it just because that strange person!!!

usually i said those words to my family..my friends coz all of them are special persons for me..

but to say those words in another way..to someone else that maybe will be a special for me also..i think already a long long long time ago i say that words.

until last nite suddenly i got those words from some1 dat i can’t say is that person special for me or not..and my heart beat not too faster than before ;p but can make me smile enough eventhough the next words after that make me feel a little bit angry…argggghhhh…!!!

we’re still friend..but now i’m with her now and i feel awkward keeping ur photos

i never imagine in my life that i will get those words..REALLY!!!! i mean, i always said to my friends if they just broke up or whatever happen with their relationship..just never return what they already receive..not because the price or something like that..i just think that better we collect all and keep it then make it just memory..dont ever regret with all the things that both of u already had bfore.

but why suddenly when i was alone in my place,just online with my bestfriends..when i just feel worry about something then suddenly someone online with me and in the last conversation..that words come?!?

i just speechless..i can understand if that person didnt want to hurt his partner but that person hurt my heart!!!

sheeitzz..totally speechless..but maybe just like his friend’s said to me..maybe because now he already feel sure about his relationship eventhough in another side make his relationship with his friends become weird because that lady..

dont know what will happen next..its just awkward words from weird people…

ps : please dont ask from who i got that words…

then suddenly since now, i just realize that i’m totally get lost. dont know actually where am i…

just like now..after the accident on last week  [ well actually i can't say that it was totally accident ] suddenly i only said ” actually where am i?!? ” i even don’t understand what kind of peoples around me on that time.

i just know in this situation..i have to controll myself..don’t over reaction about all…just calm down bla bla bla bla….

but the fact…now i’m lost

with what i have already done..i feel nothing special at all

feel empty in the lonelyness

without someone special on that special day

 i think i have to re-arrange my future again

to reach my dreams ..

and paint my life with the rainbow colours

i feel that for this situation..totally i’m not a selfish girl.maybe people willl not understand why i say like that but to be honest..i really feel that i’m not like that.

i know that it is my own decision to be here..so i must take the risk..you always said like that..even i didnt said anything about here..and you totally make me feel guilty but i just follow what i want..eventhough i just realize that its totally difficult to be here..

just try my best to do everything in here..coz i’m lonely..survive by myself

baru sekarang kenoth bener2 ngerasain yang namanya ” habis manis..sepah dibuang ” dan itu ternyata rasanya emang bener2 sakit banget…sumpritttt!!!!

dilihat2 pas kenoth lagi online…eh itu orang juga tiba2 ikut2an online…dengan penuh kbranian g tau malu walopun sbnrny ga perlu ngrasa gitu juga..akirnya kenoth nyapa duluan orang itu di YM nya…ini bukan yang ptama kalinya..tapi ntah kbrapa kalinya..setelah kejadian januari dan setelah dia telpon buat kasih tau sikon skrg…

tapi ternyata ga direspon dengan baik…bener2 ngecewain bgt..padahal ud brasa bnr2 nurunin harga diri deh dengan slalu nanya kabar kalo dia tiba2 ol juga…dan ud sms 2x kasih tau notel…tapi tetep no respon…ntah knapa.

pingin ketawa pas nulis judulnya..soalnya sebenrnya kenoth sndiri ngga ngrt knp bisa..

dimulai dr ktidak sengajaan..trs akirnya trjadi keisengan yang akirnya malah jadi bisa buat tempat sharring..apa aja bisa dicritain [ itu sih yang kenoth rasain..]

kenapa dikasih nama bgitu..gara2nya sih cuma iseng aja..bener2 cuma iseng aja, makanya brasa geli aja pas dikasih nama itu..bener2 jauh dr kata flirting ;p heheheheee…

sjujurnya..skrg sbnrnya yang kenoth perluin ya tempat buat sharring..atleast kenoth bisa nanya sesuatu dan bisa di kasih jawaban yang seengganya bisa bikin jadi tenang..ngga perlu jadi pacar ato apapun itulah namanya…

walopun skrg ini kenoth ngga terlalu membuka diri bgt buat crita sama org ini..tapi seengganya ya kenoth crita kalo misalnya ada sesuatu yang bikin kenoth jadi kpikiran..

dan..rasanya bener2 nyaman…ngga tau kenapa, tapi beneran nyaman buat crita..padahal kalo di bilang baru kenal sih bisa2 aja..walopun sbnrnya g juga..apalagi kalo diliat dr crita2 blakang masing2 dr kita ;p ehehheee.

no heart feeling bgt buat bgini tuh..karna emang ngga ada rencana apa2..jadi jangan pada salah sangka aja ;p heheheee..mudah2an bisa lama kaya gini…bener2 uda ngrasa nyaman..as long no body hurt deh..mudah2an ngga di bawa ke hati juga..soalnya itu urusannya nanti jadi berubah deh ;p

uhmm…online yuu ;p

 Uda bisa di pastiin kalo smua orang PASTI pernah ngerasain yang namanya LDR a.k.a LONG DISTANCE RELATIONSHIP dalam hidupnya..ntah itu pasangan yang hidup dalam Negara yang sama Cuma beda kota atopun hidup di Negara yang berbeda sekalipun.

Yang dirasa pasti berbeda..Cuma beban PASTI sama..yaitu sama2 tetap menjaga kepercayaan satu sama lain ampe masa LDR berakhir.

Sebenernya menurut kenoth, LDR itu intinya harus dimulai dari niatnya dulu..soalnya pacaran dekat aja kadang2 kalo di mulai dari niat yang ngga jelas pasti ngjalaninnya juga rada2 ngga benerlah..apalagi LDR?!?

Ampe sekarang masih binun kenapa sih mesti ada LDR..?

Kalo ada yang bilang LDR itu suatu pembuktian kesetiaan seseorang..bisa2 aja sih, Cuma ngga sratus persen juga benernya karna yang ngga LDR aja juga bisa setia ko..ya kan?!?

Cuma emang bener kalo LDR itu sebagai ajang pembuktian diri..sebagai titik gol seseorang dalam hidupnya…[ menurut kenoth lohh ]

Soalnya LDR itu bener2 bikin seseorang harus bersikap LEBIH dalam segala hal..contohnya

1. LEBIH SABAR

Jadi kalo salah satu dari pasangan itu tiba2 marah2 ngga jelas, ngambek ngga tau kenapa ya harus lebih bisa sabar kalo sikonnya ngga memungkinkan buat segalanya jadi serba cepat..

2. LEBIH PENGERTIAN

Jadi…kalo salah satu pasangannya itu tiba2 kerasa ngga punya waktu, sibuk sendiri, ato tiba2 kerasa aneh..harus bisa ngertiin kesibukkan masing2 selama masih beralasan yang jelas.

3. LEBIH BIJAKSANA

Lebih bisa ngadepin smua masalah tanpa emosi, dibawa santai asal jelas tujuannya. Extra obyektif dalam sgala hal deh..

4. LEBIH HEMAT

Ya ini deh…yang kadang2 bikin sensi orang soalnya uda nyangkut ttg uang sih..as we know LDR itu gede banget ongkosnya..makanya ngga heran ada pepatah “ cintaku berat di ongkos ;p hehehe“ harus pinter2 memaksimalkan penggunaan kcanggihan elektronik yang dapat membantu kelancaran berkomunikasi apalagi yang gratis2..jangan ampe gaptek deh!!

Ya ini sih cuma pendapat kenoth aja, berdasarkan penelitian sendiri..soalnya kayanya banyak juga nih dr orang2 yang ngalamin LDR..;p hehheee